Only way I can describe this past month- a complete rollercoaster ride.
We found out we were pregnant mid February. We were both so extremely happy. Then 2 weeks later I started having signs of miscarriage which blood tests confirmed and then a week ago yesterday I started to miscarry.
While I was miscarrying we had already planned a vacation to New York to visit our doctors from the Women’s Therapy Center and to meet up with our friends who were going for treatment. We went ahead and went along with our plans- and the distraction was greatly needed.
I want to post more in detail about our new york trip, but right now I am just asking for prayers. I know I was early on in the pregnancy, but I already loved THIS baby.
I know people don’t really know what to say and just want to encourage me- but not to be rude- things such as ‘at least you know you can get pregnant’ or ‘your so young, you’ll have plenty of babies’ or ‘at least it happened early on’ or even ‘God has a reason’- don’t really mean much right now. It doesn’t give me this baby back.
My mom bought me the book I’ll Hold You In Heaven by Pastor Jack Hayford. I have only read half of it so far but it has been such a comfort to me to see scripture after scripture confirming that my 6 and a half week old baby was truly a physical and spiritual life and that I will see him/her in heaven.
We love you baby and can not wait to meet you.