Roanoke Residents.

We are official Roanoke residents, folks. And I am quite happy about that fact. Even the 25 minute drive to work isn’t so bad.

The move went very smoothly. I was quite nervous about it as our sofa would not fit through the door and had to be lifted from the ground to our third floor porch by ropes. At that point my mom went to get the pizza and I went in another room as we could not bear to watch. The sofa made it safely in, as well as no one getting hurt, even though one of the ropes was down to four threads when it was all said and done.

I will post pictures soon- we just love our cute charming apartment. Charming is a nice word for saying ‘old’, by the way. But with a fresh coat of paint, it truly is looking more up-to-date. We simply love our neighbors too and their furry pets.

On a side note (and here I go on my soapbox…), God has continued to use this blog to reach other women who have vaginismus. Just yesterday I received two facebook messages from women who ran across my blog by doing a search. It totally makes it all worth it when I am able to talk with other women who have the same condition. Thankful that God does use technology for His glory! 😉 And I again want to reiterate if there is anyone who is struggling with this condition and lives local- we have a facebook local support group and we also meet once a month to share and support one another. If you do not live local, I would love to hear from you as well. My email is Also- here is the link to our video we made about the two week program we attended: God desires for all women to have sexual freedom with their husbands. Satan is strategic and attacks this part of the marriage because most women/men are too ashamed/embarrassed to discuss it, much less go to the doctor and work toward a cure. Do not be defeated- the Lord desires freedom for all!

Okay, off my soapbox now.


Another year older, another year of change.

So, I had a birthday on Wednesday. And no, I don’t feel older. Not on that specific day at least. But I can say within this past year I feel I have ‘grown’. Since I am such a bulleted person, here are some of my thoughts over the past year:

-I have learned about and experience God’s love in a way I never have before. I have learned that God allows us to go through circumstances so that we can understand that more fully.

-I know I talk about our church family all the time- but I am truly grateful for God leading us to Citylight this past year. Last night in small group we talked about how easy it is to make an ‘idol’ of a church. I struggle with this, because I love my Citylight family so much. But then after much discussion- we love our church family because of the God that we serve and the God that we allow to work in our lives. I see on a consistent basis God working, changing, molding and breaking people in our congregation and it’s just plain exciting. The amount of transparency in the church is extremely refreshing and convicting. I have never felt freedom in Christ as much as I have now- and I pray that the Lord will continue to break down bondages so I can experience more freedom.

-And another topic I talk much about but am super thrilled- We have been cured from Vaginismus. I praise the Lord that this two year struggle is over. It could have been much longer (ex. Jessie and Philip’s nine years), and I am so thankful for God’s directing hand to healing. Please pray with me as we have our first support group meeting for women with gynecological health issues this Sunday at 3pm. I am so glad that God allowed me to go through this- I have made close friendships and connections because of this and have been able to support other women. There is no better feeling then allowing the Lord to use something personal in your life to help another. Really, it’s just another form of ‘witnessing’ as you are showing and displaying what Christ has done for us.

-I’ll be honest. Bennett and I have had some rough patches in our marriage- but I am thankful for those and am blessed to say that we are thoroughly head over heels in love with each other. I couldn’t have better handpicked a husband for myself.

-We are moving to Roanoke in one week! SO excited. Yet stressed. Our house looks like a hurricane hit. But thankful for some awesome peeps who are going to be helping us move next Saturday.

So, that is a short summary of the experiences and changes over the past year. I am excited about year 23 the Lord has blessed me with and am praying for greater things to come.

Bring on Roanoke! (Before Pictures)

So God has continued to be faithful in leading us just as He promises in His word. We got through the whole Vaginismus deal so our next major area of prayer was about moving to Roanoke or staying in Rocky Mount. My job is in Rocky Mount and several of our closest friends as well- but we felt God was pulling us to move to Roanoke to be closer to our church family. God provided the perfect apartment for us. It is only 25 minutes from my work in Franklin county and the landlord found out that Bennett worked with a painting company so he is allowing Bennett to paint the place. The Landlord gave Bennett a large sum of money on a Lowes giftcard and stated that the time Bennett puts in on the painting would be deducted from our rent. How awesome is that.

Below are a few ‘before pictures’. As you can tell it isn’t the most updated but we love the charm and the ‘homey’ feeling it has. I meant to take pictures of the outside as it is surrounded by beautiful gardens and trees. Oh, and there are tons of elderly people who live there as it use to be a retirement coommunity. Haha. They are so sweet and we love them already. We have also met quite a few people our age as well so we are excited to build and foster new relationships.

Part of the living room that leads out to the deck.

Dining room

Kitchen. I am super excited about WAY more room and cabinet space.

I simply love this window. Jess Walker is going to use some window markers and do some artwork mixed with bible verses and quotes.

Our bedroom. There is also another large bedroom.

Mostly joking here but the bathrooms are a tad out of date. But for some reason I love them anyway.

The gorgeous sink that matches oh-so-well with the brownish pink tub. This is the guest bathroom and there is also a full bathroom attached to our bedroom.

I didn’t take pictures of everything but the whole place is around 1400 square feet. 2 bedroom, 2 full baths, foyer, kitchen, dining area and living room area, pool, tennis courts, etc. I am excited to have a better living space and kitchen space to entertain with. I am hoping to be much more motivated to cook and bake!

So there is a little tour. Bennett has been working so hard this weekend. Already he has rolled the entire place (first and second coat), and has completed a bathroom and almost completed the 2nd bathroom. I am so proud of him and his hard work.

God is sovereign. Several times we were looking into buying houses in Rocky Mount and it would fall through and we would wonder why. Now we know why. God has lead us to city light for this current season in our lives to learn about church planting, to invest in lives, and to ultimately bring Glory to the Lord.


Mornings like these are times in my spiritual walk that I just feel plain dumb.

I have been struggling with nightmares for the past several months. I’d wake up drenched in sweat, heart racing- you get the picture. I was a scared, sticky, not-so-great-smelling mess.

Two nights ago I had the nightmare to top all nightmares for me and woke up in a complete panic. I shared this with a friend of mine who simply encouraged me to try praying about it before I go to bed with Bennett.

So Bennett prayed over me last night. This morning I woke up not scared, not sticky and smelling pretty good.

God is for sure teaching me lessons in prayer lately and my lack thereof. Why do I not even think to pray about these things? Is it pride? Is it not having spiritually minded thinking? Is it that I don’t want to ‘bother’ God with my ‘silly requests’?

Ephesians 3:20-21
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!”

John 14:13
“And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father.”

Matthew 7:7-11
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”

Matthew 18:19-20
“Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”