Once again, it has been a few months since I have posted and just felt the need to update- especially in light of the many emails I have been receiving from many women struggling with vaginismus. If I have not yet replied to your email, please be patient and know that I want to read every word and want to make sure I have the time to reply in a thoughtful manner. (Now, if you sent me an email 2 months ago and I have yet to respond its probably safe to say it ended up in my Spam mail so please resend 🙂 )
God has been breaking my heart again over this condition of vaginismus. It is so easy for me to forget my experience and to put it behind me and forget that other women are enduring what I did a few years ago. Between heart wrenching search engine terms to emails filled with stories of heartache I am reminded how this is not just a physical condition, but a mental, emotional and spiritual one. It doesn’t just affect the woman herself, but her relationships and it can easily destroy a marriage.
Some recent search terms that have led people to my blog have included “How Could God Allow Vaginismus”, “Vaginismus loneliness”, “Help my wife has vaginismus”, “Jesus healing Vaginismus”, “Emotional Toll Vaginismus”, “Vaginismus, my husband wants to leave me”, “Vaginismus, does it last forever?” and many more. The emotional pain and desperation behind these search terms is evident. I have also received emails with stories of husbands having affairs due to the drain this condition leaves on a marriage.
I am asking for your prayers. I obviously will not list names to protect the privacy and confidentiality of those who have emailed me- but please pray for these woman. That they will not be ashamed to speak up, seek treatment and get the help they need. That God will save their marriages, heal them from their physical condition of vaginismus but also the emotional and mental strain that comes with it.
A verse that God has placed on my mind lately that I hope will be of encouragement is Psalms 91:15
“He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.”
God will answer us, He will be with us in trouble, and He will deliver us and honor us. The more I meditated on this verse I realized that it didn’t jump straight from ‘I will answer him, I will deliver him’. It is ‘I will answer him, I will be with him in trouble THEN I will deliver him….” SO many times in life we want God to answer us then immediately deliver us from our troubles, but I am comforted by this verse that God is WITH US in our troubles.
Take heart sweet friends and know that God is with you in your troubles and He promises to deliver you and honor you. You may not know when or how but He will.